My birthday weekend!

Oh. My. God.

It's my birthday weekend and I'm am SooooooOOooOOOO excited! I haven't been this excited about a birthday in some time. It may have something to do with my emotional situation right now. I think I can say I'm actually happy for a change. Or almost happy. Of course things could always be better. So maybe the word is "content."

I've recently accepted things that I can't change. I've realized there are things that I can change. And I think I've accepted the fact that I want to change myself. And I'm proactively working on it. Those things make me content.

One way ticket to...

I was at work, without work today, and was fiddling around on the internet, as usual. I found myself daydreaming about possible vacations, some that I may never be able to take. I always find myself daydreaming about running away to another country, finding a beautiful man with an accent, and living happily ever after. I subconsciously (or consciously) found myself at Orbitz.com looking up a one-way ticket to Australia. Not round trip, one-way.
And I daydreamed more. $1500 could get me to Australia. It would take me forever to save that up, just to get there. If I went and stayed, I'd have to find work, and work a long time to save up just to get back. If I came back.
Could I do that? Could I leave everything, everyONE I know to live an adventure that may backfire on me? (much like most of the adventures I've already tried to live out here in the states?) I don't know. It's such a huge leap, and not like me. But I guess if it ever came to it, I could always come back. Right? Right!?